Losing Our Baby Boy: Still Born
Mid pandemic we found out we were pregnant with our second perfect baby. With the pandemic and the shift in how we access medical care, I had only one in person appointment and one phone appointment with my doctor over the span of 21 weeks. I had a couple small subcutaneous bleeds but with the fear of going to the hospital that I’ve come to find was pretty common, I didn’t go. I got to nearly 22 weeks when I started seeing signs of labour that felt just a bit too real. I thought Braxton hicks were reasonable at this stage so I passed the mild and random contractions I was having off as that. I had discharge that was suspect but I thought there was no way I was in labour this early. My first son tried to come early a couple years before this, he tried at 28 weeks and I went on bedrest to keep him stayed put. During that, I struggled through loneliness, aimlessness, and depression, and I was already mentally prepared to do it again to finish this pregnancy with a healthy and happy bab
